blog

Sooo I'm definitly supposed to be writng an essay right now but I felt like blogging. Today was bad I just don't wanna talk about it. But this weekend I learned some things about myself and some other people.



The subject of religon came up with two of my friends at the mall on thursday. I wasn't going as hard conversation wise as they were cuz there definitly more religous then I am. I was kinda just listening. I guess it was the part that they were talking about attending church and if it made you religous. I was saying how I was baptized in the same church as one of the girls in the convo and I havent gone on a regular basis since I was like 5. I'm not gonna front I don't feel any type of way about it for the simple fact that I think church is filled with judgemental hypocrites. She was saying that she agrees and that going to church isn't about the people within the congregation its about you strenghening your relationship with God. And having a relationship with God has nothing to do with going to church its about praying and keeping him close to you spiritually.



Someone tried to hook me up on saturday. FAIL! My aunt actually...well shes not really my aunt but I wish she was cuz shes mad cool. Her son brought his friend to a family gathering this past weekend and I guess I was supposed to talk to him lmao... I mean I said hi I don't think I was being rude but he was just far from being my type. She was like don't you wanna go over there and talk to him. I'm like about what???? lol

So its safe to say I will never truly understand males. One of my friends is havin relationship issues. Nothing too out of the ordinary but I refuse to go into detail on the computer. Listening to her, I'm just realizing how similar our stories are. Not just me and her but females in general. I don't understand why good, compassionate, beautiful individuals like ourselves put ourselves though these type of things smh. I just think its important to know what your getting into 100% before jumping in a relationship whether is romantic, friendship, or anything else. We all have our baggage it could be emotional such as loss of trust in others, or physical such as over bearing ex's , child from a previous relationship or issues with the parents of your significant other.

This weekend I had someone who supposed to be close to me try to put me on the spot in a negative way. Two words-No bueno. Its not like I had the best relationship with this person in the past like we had our ups and downs (more downs then ups) but your supposed to get over stuff like that and move on, especially when its family. I guess thats not the case

So in conclusion I learned this weekend:
1. A relationship with God doesn't have everything to do with religon and church. Its spiritual and personal between you and Him

2. I shouldn't let the actions of others affect wheather I want to go to church or not or if I wanna do anything else for that matter.

3. Don't trust others to hook you up with someone. Not that I ever did lol. But yea if you want something to be done right you gotta do it yourself

4.People don't truly change they just become more of what they were so don't give anyone the benefit of the doubt

5.You can't change what people do to you in relationships but you can change your reaction to there actions.

6. Know what your getting into before you start up a relationship. Its important to make sure your fully aware of others intentions and make sure there worth the potential drama they bring before your end up in a situation you regret.

I can honestly say thta even though this blog has little to do with why I'm in such a bad mood, writing definitly made my heart a little less heavy.