A Product of my Enviroment

OO EMM GEEE! I soo don't even know where to start with this blog of mines about Dutchess Community College aka Harvard on the (gross) Hudson. Dutchess was pretty much the last place I expected to spend to next two years of my life. Mainly because I thought that if I stayed in this town after high school any longer I would end up pregnant. And if you lived in pk you would understand my fears 100%. I'm glad to say that almost two years later that has yet to happen! But that is besides the point.

Going to Dutchess has done a lot to help me become prepared for what is in store for me in the real world. I learned so much about myself as far as the person I am and the person I want to be in the future. I made a few friends and lost a few more. I made mistakes and learned (well I'm still learning) when it is time to let go and umm forgive others for theirs. For me that has been the hardest thing for me learn. Forgiveness. I always expected others to forgive me for my mistakes and for hurting them but never gave anyone the time of day to even hear their apology. Maybe its my selfish tendancies that makes me think that as long as I'm sorry I should be forgiven by someone but not vice versa.

Or maybe I'm just protecting myself from being hurt by peopleagain. I have gone through more than people think and I don't know if anyone will ever truly understand.I heard so many times I'm to selfish, too emotional, too sensitive, too mean, self centered, disrespectful,angry,bitchy....umm yea I can go on all day.

But everyone is aloud to think what they want thats cool have your own opinons about me. But at the end of the day I am the way I am because I'm just looking out for myself. If I don't then who will come on lets be real. What can I say im just a product of my enviroment like everyone else .

This blog was supposed to be more about school but I guess when your on a roll you can't help but to keep it going.